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I went through the rest of the school day without Jackoby. We passed by each other in the hallway and tried to hug but got yelled at by a teacher. We went off disgruntled but still in love. Everything was happening so fast for me. But I loved it. Jackoby was charming, gorgeous, and a  great guy. What was there not to love? I thought about him all day. I wondered if he thought about me. "Of course!" I thought. "Of course he's thinking about me!"

Once the school day was out I headed outside to the front of the school and said goodbye to my friends. "Hey guys. I'll see ya on Monday!" I said. "Yea. Have fun you two!" Brendon said. "They are so freakin' cute." Julie said. "Hehe! Aww!! So cute!" Heather said and smiled a big smile. "Haha. Well, see you guys." Jackoby said and took my hand. I knew it was only the first day but I loved Jackoby already. We walked away waving with the one free hand we both had. The two of us headed to my car. "Kay. I wanna see your house." Jackoby said innocently. I was a bit nervous about that. "Uh, okay." I said hesitantly. "You live with your parents?" he asked. "No. I live alone." I said. "Cool. I do too. My parents left me on my own went I was 14. Tragic but I got over it. They, lets say, didn't like who I was." Jackoby explained. "Oh. I just told my parents I wanted to move out. They said it was fine." I said. Jackoby's story was a bit tragic. Being left by my parents would leave me homeless and truly lost in this world.

"Can I come to your house?" Jackoby asked and smiled his beautiful smile. "Yea. Sure. But there's one thing about my house you shouldn't tell anyone else about. Come on. I'll show you." I said. We hopped in to my car and drove to my old weathered, beat down house. Once there Jackoby looked interested. Very interested. "Ok. This is my house. No one knows I live here. It's kind of a secret. Only my friends know. They receive my school letters at their houses." I explained. "Your house in so cool. You live here?" Jackoby asked in a very intrigued tone. He was so interested. "Yep. I live here." I said and smiled. I parked my car in the woods and Jackoby and I walked back to the house. It needed a paint job disparately. We walked in and I gave Jackoby a grand tour.

"There's not very much furniture in here." Jackoby said. "I know. I haven't  been able to buy too much." I said. Jackoby smiled. "I love your house." he said. I smiled. "I love you." he said and smiled even wider. My heart stopped. "Aww. I love you too." I said, breath taken. The glitter in his eyes came back. I looked into them. It was as if fire were inside of them, behind his pupil. It was so weird, but still I loved it. Unexplainable, but I loved it so. We stood there looking into each other's eyes until there was a loud crack in the old floor boards. The house creaked and cracked all the time. I should ave been used to it but that certain crack woke me from the hypnotizing glance of my boyfriend.

"Um...Kay...I have a secret of my own." Jackoby said, breaking the silence. "What is it?" I asked, curious of the answer. "Remember when I told you my parents left me because they didn't like who I was?" he asked. "Yea." I answered. "Well, um, they didn't like the fact that...I'm...um...." Jackoby hesitated. "It's okay. You can tell me." I said and got closer to him. The fire in his eyes was getting stronger. "Well, they left me because I was born a....vampire." Jackoby said. "Please believe me. I swear I'm not lying." he said disparately. I was indescribable. I didn't know whether I was shocked or saddened by this news. I smiled.

"I believe you. But I want you to show me." I said. Jackoby smiled. His teeth had grown. I swallowed hard. I nodded my head. Jackoby got closer to me. I felt no fear. He then kissed me. I tasted a bit of blood but I didn't care.


]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-05-02T20:37:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2278671/heart-moon-chpt-5/
I was so happy for the rest of the day. My heart skipped and jumped.  I sang  with joy in my heart. I wondered if I was taking this to seriously. But I decided to say that I was just really excited. Once it was night again and my Moon was out I told it I was in love. I saw the face of the Moon smile. It was always smiling! That's why I loved the Moon as well. It smiled no matter what. Jacoby. His name bounced around in my head all night. I didn't sleep much. I was too excited. It had been so long since that last time I was in love. Or at least I thought it was love. I hadn't felt it much so I didn't really know how it felt. Eventually I fell a sleep and dreamt of him. On only the first day too.

When I woke up in the morning my heart skipped again. Immediately I thought of Jackoby. "I wonder if his is this excited." I thought. "Maybe." I got a quick shower, dried my hair, and got dressed. I was so happy when I left my house. I never wanted to leave my house in the morning. It didn't take the usual 20 mintues to get to school. It only took about 15 minutes. I drove a bit faster that day. I arrived at school and my friends were in their normal places in front of the school. Jackoby was there. "Hey guys." I said as I walked over to them and blushed as Jackoby looked at me. I stood by him. He blushed and smiled. Bremndon noticed us. "Hey, hey, hey. Am I missing something here?" he asked, pointed at Jackoby and me. We both blushed redder than a cardinal's feathers. "Whoa! Romance in the group?" Heather said and looked at us. I said nothing. Just put a silly smile on my face. Jackoby was the first to speak up."Um, yea. Well. I like Kay I guess. Heh." he said ever so hesitantly. "Awww. That's so sweet." Julie said. "And on the first day too. You must know a good thing when you see it." Jon said. Jackoby smiled, still blushing.

I smiled still. Jackoby and I scooted closer to each other unnoticably. I loved him. "Hey losers." I heard  fimilar voice say. Ryan. "Hey Ryro.Where ya been?" Brendon said, slappin Ryan on the back. "Well, vacation actually. I was in West Virginia." Ryan explained. "Seriously? You didn't tell us." Julie said. "Yea. I know. My bad. I kinda forgot."  Ryan said. "Sure. I bet you weren't even in West Virginia. You were probably in Vegas! You get married by any chance?" Heather said mockingly. "Haha. Very funny Heather! No. I really was in West Virginia. And NO! I didn't get married." Ryro said with his cute little smile. "Hey whoa. Kay. Who's this handsom fellow?" Ryro asked and looked at Jackoby. "This is Jackoby. He's new here." I said. "Well, welcome to the clan." Ryan said. "Thanks. Happy to be here." Jackoby said.

The bell rang and we all went to our classes. Jackoby and I hugged before we left each other. No one was around to say anything so it was all good. I went through the day without Jackoby until lunch. We met back up and were happy. "So, Jackoby. Look's like you found our girl Kay here. Treat her good or we'll beat you up. HA! Just kiddin' bud. You're good. But take care of her okay?" Ryro said. "Yea. We love Kay and don't want her hurt." Heather said. "Yea. I know. I promise to treat her good." Jackoby said. I could tell he was nervous and uncomforable about this talk. I felt bad but my friends loved me just like Jackoby loved me. They only wanted to protect me. "Good. Good to hear Jackoby. I'd hate for you to end up like some loser boyfriend." Julie said. "Ha. I know I'm not one." Brendon said. "Right Brendon....Just kidding!" Jon said. Brendon punched him in his chest. They punched a lot."HEY! No fighting at the table! no punching!" one of the teachers said from across the room. "Sorry." Brendon said.

"I promise I'll be good to Kay." Jackoby said and looked me right in the eyes. His eyes glittered like no other. It was as if fire were in them. It almot looked unreal. I loved it, but it was unexplainable. Lunch was soon over and everyone headed back to class.

"I miss Jackoby."
]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-04-29T19:08:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2261921/heart-moon-chpt-4/
When school was over I told the guys I was going to the parking lot to meet up with Jackoby. "Aww. How cute!" Julie said. Brendon nudged my arm. "Oh come on. He's just a new friend!" I told them. "Haha Kay. You like him!!" Heather said in a childish tone. I smirked at my friends. Maybe I did like Jackoby. Oh well. "Ok, ok. You guys make all the comments you want. I gotta go meet him." I said smiling. I wave to the guys and said good-bye. "Have fun Kay!" Jon said. "Oh she will." Brendon remarked. I smiled back at them. They were over-reacting. This meeting ment nothing. Or so I thought.

I  walked to the parking lot and Jackkoby was already there. He smiled at me. I smiled back. His smile was like no other. "Hey." he said and bowed his head. "Hey." I said. "You find your way around the school okay?" I asked. "Yea. The teachers pointed me in the right directions." he explained. "Ok. And a little hint: The math teachr can be a total bitch." I said. Jackoby laughed. "Arn't they all?" he said. "True, true." I laughed and blushed. My heart was doing things it hasn't done in so long. It fluttered and jumped uncontrolably. It felt strange. But I loved it. "Where do you live?" Jackoby asked. "Oh no." I thought. "Um, in the country. About 20 minutes away." I explained. "Cool. Is it a big house?" he asked. "Um. Sorta. kind of an old place. Needs some work." I knew exactly what I was talking about. My house did need some work. I laughed a bit.

I looked down at my shoes. "Hey, I wanted to thank you for showing me around and sitting by me at lunch. I don't look like too much of a freak now." Jackoby said and smiled. There's that smile again. Everytime I saw it I had to smile too. "No problem. I have to admit my friends and I are kind of the freaks of school. But it's a good freak. Not bad." I said. "Well, I've always been a bit of a freak. It's okay. I'm used to it. I'm actually kind of  proud of it." Jackoby said, looking proud. He was so cute. "Kay, I umm, I was kind of wondering, if you weren't in a relationship um...would you uh, maybe...go out with...me? I-I know it's early but I really like you and umm-" Jackoby said so hesitinly. My heart skipped a beat. I hardly knew him but I wanted it so bad. I thought for only a moment, giving Jackoby a pleased look. "Yea." I said. He smiled the biggest smile ever. So cute. I smiled the biggest smile I have ever smiled as well as Jackoby. There was a silence, but a good silence at that.

"Well. I gotta get home. I'll see you tomorrow. Umm, here's my number." I said. I gave him my number. And yes. I had a phone. I used it occantionally. "Ok. Thanks. I'll see ya." Jackoby said and smiled his smile. I waved and smiled back to him. "Bye." I said. And then I was off.

"I can't believe it. The first day I go looking for love, I find it. It's amazing." I thought. I got into my car and drove home. I was glad to get home but already I missed Jackoby. "Wow." I said when I walked into the door of my house and laid down on my old, dusty couch.

I have love.



]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-04-26T20:07:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2250301/heart-moon-chpt-3/


Once I was out of history class, and every other class before lunch, I headed to the cafe to have lunch. "Hey guys.", I said, walking up to a table of my friends. "Hey Kay.", they all said in unison again. They were awful good at that. "How was math?", I asked Brendon. "Ugh. Don't get me started. First the freakin' teacher-" Brendon was interrupted by Heather. "Don't get him started.", she said. Everyone at the table laughed. "Hey. I'm going to get some lunch. Come with?", Heather asked me and Julie. "Sure.", we both said. We girls walk up and got our food. While we were walking back to the table I spotted someone across the room. He was cute. Long emo cut hair style. Darker clothes. Looked lonely. He wasn't sitting with anyone. All of the sudden I felt sorry for him. Once we got back to the table I told the guys. "Hey. Guys. Check it out. Is he a new kid or something?" I asked and pointed unnoticably to the kid. "I think so. I saw him this morning and wondered myself.", Julie said.  "He's adorable.", I said under my breath. "Lets go sit by him.", I said. "Oh! That sounds fun!" Heather said and jumped up and down. She almost dropped her lunch. "Heather, what would we do without you?", Julie asked.

My gang and I walked over to the table and said "Hi". "Hey. Are you new here?", I asked. "Yea.", he muttered. He was very shy and I could tell. "You mind if we sit by you?", I asked. He paused or a moment. Then looked into my eyes. "I don't mind.", he said at last. :Awesome. Well. My name is Kay.", I said. "I'm Julie.", Julie said casualy."Heather!", Heather yelled. "Jon.", Jon said with a wave. "Last but certainly not least, I am Brendon. The best of the group.", Brendon said in a vain voice. Jon hit Brendon in his chest playfully. "Ow dude!", Brendon said. The new kid laughed. "I'm Jackoby. I've been called Koby before, but I like my full name.", Jackoby said. "Ok. Jackoby. I like it.", I said. Jackoby smiled. His smile was to die for.

So we ate with our new friend. "Hey, Jackoby. What class you got next?", Brendon asked. "Art I think.", he answered. "Oh my God. Me too!", I said. Jackoby smiled again. "Maybe you can show me around this place. It's so big and hard to find places.", Jackoby said. "Yea. Certainly.", I said. "Oh God. I sounded like a total geek there.", I said. "You are a geek!", Heather said jokingly. "Ha! You're talkin'!", Brendon said. Heather stuck her tounge out at Brendon. We all laughed.

After lunch we talked for a little while longer. I think I was falling in love. Once again. I was falling in love. Jackoby. So cute. We had a lot of the same interests. I loved that. Then the bell rang and jackoby and I headed to the art room. "Ok. Here's the art room.", I said. Jackoby and I sat at the same table. The art teacher told us our assignment and we both worked. "Wow. That's really good Jackoby.", I said. "Thanks.", he said and blushed. He was a really good artist. We talked a little here and there. He was so absorbed in his work. It was cute. But soon my 50 minutes of watching Jackoby draw were over. The bell rang and we both had different classes. "Well, I'll see you later. Maybe we can meet out in the parking lot later.", Jackoby said and blushed. "Yea. That'd be cool!", I said. "I'll see ya later.", he said. "Ok. See ya.", I said and waved. He waved bak and we went our sperate ways.

"Hes so cute." I thought.
]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-04-24T18:07:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2163301/heart-moon-chpt-2/
I awoke to the sound of "Nine In The Afternoon" by Panic! At The Disco. I had loved that song. I got out of bed and got ready for school. I wore my darker colors and fixed my hair a bit. Once ready I walked out the door. 7:18am. I was out of the door. My car was hidden in the near-by woods. I had to keep everything secretive. So, I walked to the woods and uncovered my car. I guess you could say I was breaking the law. I didn't have very much money so I had to do what I had to do.  I hopped into my car and quitely drove off.

I arrived at school 20 minutes later. My friends were outside chit-chatting. I walked up to them. "Hey guys." I said. "Hey Kay!", they all said in unison. My friends had known of my home. Only they knew. I told no one else. I had the school send things to their houses instead of my secret home. My friends were so supportive. "Hey Julie, did you finish the math homework from last night?", Jon asked. "Umm. Actually no. Ha. I'll have to do it dring study hall.", Julie said, blushing. "Heather?", Jon asked. Heather shook her head. "Sorry Jon.", she said.We were all pretty bad when it came to homework. Even me. "What about you Brendon?", Jon continued asking. "Nope. Sorry dude!", Brendon said, shrugging his shoulders. "Shit.", Jon said. "Mrs. Whats-her-face will kill me.", he continued. "Well, at the most you'll get a detention.", I said. "Oh. Well, that makes me feel better!", Jon said sacasticly. I shrugged my shoulders.

"Dude. Looks like you are up shit creek without a paddle.", Brendon said. I laughed. I loved my friends. "Hey, guys, we should head in. They'll beat our asses if we don't get to class in time.", I said. The bell was going to ring at any moment. "Yea. C'mon.", Heather said. We headed to class. While walking I thought of that dangerous word again. Love. I wondered who I loved. "Well. There is this one guy.", I thought. Once in the classroom I took my seat. The English teacher taught but I was in my own thoughts. "Kay...Kay! KAY!", I heard. I looked at the teacher. "Can you please pay attention?", she asked. "Yea. Sorry.", I said, bowing my head. I heard a bit of laughter. I wrinkled my nose.  I went back to my thoughts. Suddenly the bell rang. I sprang up out of my seat and ran out the door. I met Julie and Heather at their lockers. "Hey.", I said. "Hey.", they said. "I got burnt by the math teacher for not doing my homework.", Julie said. "I bet. And I'm next.", Heather remarked. "Well, I got to get to class.", Julie said and closed her locker. "Yea, me too.", I said. "See you guys at lunch.", Heather said and walked off. I waved. Julie did the same.

"See ya Julie.", I said and walked off. "See ya.", she said. History.
]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-04-09T13:00:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2135031/heart-moon-chpt-1/

I looked out of my window, cold and damp with frost. I could see the Moon. It was truely a beautiful sight. I saw a heart shaped crater on it. As if the Moon had a heart; beating for one of those planets out there. The Sun? Saturn? Maybe Jupiter. I would never know. A cloud moved in front of the Moon and I stepped away from my frost covered window. I lived alone. No one knew I lived in the house I lived in. An abandoned house, run down from the weather and years of standing on its old tired floor boards. It was always cold in the house. I dare not turn on any electricity. I had only one small light and candles. But it was my home. Very few pieces of furniture, no fridge, no simple pleasure most beings would love to have. I lived simple. I didn't need any extras. I had clothes and food. I went to school but no one had ever asked where I lived. Thank God. I wouldn't be able to tell them. High school was always a place of rumors and un-true statements. No need for my little secret to slip out. One could say I dressed darker. I just prefer darker colors.

I went back to the window. Not only did I look at the Moon, I looked at the world. I looked at what was going on around me. I lit a candle and sat in a small chair I had. I still looked out the window. At the world. But the thought of love slipped into my mind. Love. A four letter word that can be so dangerous. I believe it was over-used. People spitting it out at each other like a snake spits out its venom. Love. I wondered what it truely felt like. But in some way I was afraid of it. I've heard many stories at school of its dangerous habits. Breaking hearts, making one cry, and even sometimes leading to the death of a friend.

My friends think I think too much. I believe otherwise. I like my thoughts. It's my saftey from the world. Well, as much as I did think I sleet a lot too. And after thinking about love and the Moon and stars and the Sun I headed off to my simple bed, upstairs in the old house. It was cold in my home so I had many blankets. I had to go to school tomorrow. And yes, I had an alarm clock. I would miss school if I didn't. I drifted to a slumber in which I would not wake till early in the morning.

I dreamt of my Moon. And...love. Perhaps I should start looking at school. I was not bad looking myself. I could love. Perhaps at school....




]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-04-04T21:03:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/2031411/im-fine/ Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-03-20T20:44:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/1802071/it-disappears/ Just one year ago I was in horrible pain.
I thought that  pain would never go away.
It went away.
All because of him.
I'm so grateful.
Just think, I could be dead.
But I'm still here.
And I am grateful.
I look back.
Back when everything fell apart.
But now I relize that all of that is in the past.
But it still hurt.
But he made all of that go away.
When I look into his eyes,
When he makes me laugh,
When he hugs me.
It all disappears.
And I feel no pain.
No pain.
Sounds amazing.
It is amazing....


]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-02-09T21:15:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/1759231/troubled-idea-part-2/

"Guys, shh." I said.  I heard someone talking outside of our shitty ass apartment door.Everyone silenced themselves. "Cops.", I whispered. "Shit.", Cove said. Suddenly it was quite outside. Then our door busted open. Shit. Cops. I tried to get out of the window but one of those fat bastards grabbed me. I struggled to get free but no luck. The rest of the guys were held back as well. "That guy at the store must have called the God damn cops." I thought. Our drugs were out in the open. Right were the cops could see them. "Well, well. Hunter. Drugs again? I thought you were already in the brig for this shit.", one of the cops teased. I knew this cop. He followed my case like a dog sniffing out a dumb ass rabbit. Me being the rabbit. I rolled my eyes. I then spit in his face. He looked at me with rage in his eyes. "Come on guys. Lets take them all to the station.", the cop said. I struggled but they still managed to get me and my buds into the car. "I new this shit would happen Hunter! You took off your damn mask! Now look where we are!!!!", Drake said. "Shut the fuck up. You are not making this any better Drake!", Cove said. "Aw come on Cove! You're only sticking up for her cause she can get you drugs!" Danny said. "That is not true. You shit heads are jus blaming this on her when it is all of our faults!", Cove snapped back. "Shut up back there.", one of the cops said. "Fuck you.", Nathan whispered.

They drove us to the station. I knew this place too well. They threw me into one of the cells for the night. In the morning I would go to court. I'd probably be guilty anyways. There was no point in going. I'm guessing they threw the guys somewhere else. I don't think they would let them go. I went to sleep. I didn't care anymore.

Once I woke in the morning they took me to court right away. "Guilty!", the judge said and pounded his mallot. They took me away. Jail wasn't so bad. We had the only jail in the state to have a men and women prison. I liked it. I walked to my cell. Same one I had last time. "Wonder what happend to the guys.", I thought. "Oh well.", I whispered. I lay down on my bed. I fell asleep again. I was soon awoken by the lunch bell. I got up and walked to the cafe. "Hunter!!!!", an old jail friend yelled from the other side of the cafe. "Hey!!", I said and waved. I picked up a lunch tray andwalked up to the food line. "Back again Hunter?", Pedro the cafe worker asked. "Oh hell yes!", I said. "What for this time?", he asked, putting the mush food n my tray. "Same thing as last time, drugs.", I explained. "Ah, well, good luck in here again. Although you do practically own the place." Pedro said. "Yeah, yeah I do." I said and walked to my table.

Sitting down I noticed someone from across the room. They looked fimilar. "Oh shit.", I whispered. It was the guy from the gas station. I left my plate of mush and walked up to him. "You.", I said. "Excuse me?", he said. "I saw you at the gas station two nights ago. What the fuck are you doing here?", I asked, extremely puzzled. "No. You see. I was gonna rob the place. Then you and your friends showed up. Once you left my identity was reconized by the damn cops.", he explained. "Oh." I said. "The names Derek.", he said and put out his hand.{{Lolz}} "Hunter." I said and grabbed his hand.





]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-02-01T18:40:00Z http://kbsquidgirl.buzznet.com/user/journal/1680631/troubled-idea-story/

We were so gonna rob the fucking gas station. The rush of it all was intense. The name's Hunter. I don't go by the name my parents gave me. My buddies, Cove, Nathan,Danny and Drake and I are...trouble makers you could say. We just like adventure. If stealing, drugs, and drinking is adventure, we are professionals. And now we were robbin' a gas station. We needed money for drugs. And we were determind to get it. I was the only girl in the group. Short, dyed hair, black tank tops, chains,skinny jeans, the punk look ya know. My parents didn't want to have anything to do with me. So, they left. They left me in that God forsaken town. But I didn't care. I was robbing a gas station. I only needed to worry about the God damn cops. I hated cops. I've served time before. I have a record. But I was hoping I would get away with everything this time.

2:47am. It was late...or early as some say. When we arrived and slowly approached the entracnce. I slipped on a mask. I had a record okay? I didn't want anyone seeing my face. I looked into one of the windows and saw that there was someone in there with the clerk. "Fuck" I whispered. "What the fuck is that person doing in there. It's 3:00 in the morning!" Danny said. "I don't know okay, just shut the fuck up!" Drake said. Danny punched Drake. "Guys! Do you want to be heard?" I said. "No." Cove said. "THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I yelled, but still whispered.

"Come on." I said. We moved forward. I pushed the door open hard. But for some reason I couldn't manage to steal anything. The guy at the front counter by the store clerk struck me. Not literally but he was gorgeous. I didn't want to steal anything. I just stared at him. He stared back. But he had a confused look about him. My buddies were already stealing things, putting the things in there bags. I couldn't move. I did manage to tak of my mask for some stupid reason. "Oh my God. That girl is wanted!" the store clerk yelled. The man by the clerk looked at him then back at me. "Hunter! C'mon!!!" Cove yelled. It took me a few seconds to relize that I needed to get out. Then I ran with my buds.

"Hunter! What the fuck was wrong with you????" Drake asked, still running. "I-I don't know. I was frozen." I said. "Don't do that again!" Cove said. "Okay, okay. Sorry." I said. We ran all the way back to our apartment. Our shitty ass apartment. I couldn't believe I was so paralized. What the hell?
]]> Buzznet kbsquidgirl 2008-01-18T13:47:00Z